This memoir style blog shares the hardships I have faced and my relentless pursuit for healing. As long as I can remember, I've had chronic migraines and other health problems. For decades, I felt sorry for myself and lived in anxiety and fear. Over time, I learned to accept the traumas of my life, believing I had endured so much pain so I could truly grasp the concepts depicted in the tarot and translate them into songs. I thought I had figured out the meaning and purpose for my life, and it was to create something innovative and beautiful out of my suffering. However, as my project has evolved, I've come to realize I am creating The Music Tarot to heal myself. I am blessed to have a multitude of gifts at my disposal. I can sing, play piano, compose music, and write lyrics. I am tech-savvy and not afraid to learn new things. I can channel my emotions in a way that allows me to create musical works of art. My health issues reached a pivotal point in 2022 and inspired me to share my feelings and experiences. This is my healing journey.
**Disclaimer: The opinions expressed in this blog are my own and should not be perceived as professional advice in regards to health, medicine, or the medical field. Please consult your own health care provider if you have questions about your body and health.
Wednesday, April 10, 2024. The most successful dog trainers focus on rewarding good behavior and ignoring or correcting bad behavior. The dog learns they get treats and praise when they do this one thing, and they get nothing if they…
Tuesday, October 3, 2023. My thoughts hurt me, literally. When I experience my worst migraines, any mundane thought causes a knifelike, slicing, stabbing sensation in my head. It makes me wince. It makes me cry. It makes me crawl on…
Wednesday, August 2, 2023. A threat, real or perceived, is an intention to inflict pain, injury, damage, or other hostile action to one's physical or emotional well-being. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer 17 months ago, I experienced a…
Wednesday, April 12, 2023. I was going to title this blog post, "Smack!" and write about hitting walls of creativity crushing blocks over the past few months. But I was unable to get it together due to the brain fogginess…
Tuesday, January 31, 2023. It has taken me six months to feel well enough to write this post. And even now, I don't know if my thoughts will translate coherently. At the beginning of September 2022, things got dark. Black…
Sunday, July 17, 2022. In the months that followed my surgery, I became depressed. I didn’t fall into the depths of despair or anything too substantial, but my weeks were hard. They still are hard. I intended to go back…
Thursday, April 21, 2022. Another New Test Results email arrived. I knew it was the surgical pathology results, but I refused to look at them. I was too afraid. I wanted Surgical-Oncologist-Doctor L to call and discuss them with me…
Monday, April 18, 2022. I started with Johnny Was. I first discovered this luxury brand of clothing and accessories during a work trip to Atlanta, GA in January 2019. The boho-chic fashion line is known for their signature scarves and…
Friday, April 15, 2022. I woke up early to post the website and social media updates for my 4th single release, Romeo / Knight of Cups. I had written and prepared the content before my surgery so all I…
4:00 AM. Wednesday, April 13, 2022. The pain in my head was waffling between 7 and 9 on my pain scale. It topped the charts as one of the worst migraines I’d ever experienced. I was in complete agony.
Saturday, April 2, 2022. I needed to know what I was going to look like after surgery. I wanted a blueprint of my body - flat-chested - so I wasn’t shocked after surgery. My plan was to minimize any potential…
Thursday, March 31, 2022. It had been one week. One week since deciding on my surgery. One week of strange, nightmarish dreams, revolving around hacked body parts, botched medical procedures, and medication failures. A cloud of dread loomed over me…
Monday, March 21, 2022. Sparkle’s limp had returned on her right front leg. She hobbled down the back porch steps to go potty. Miah’s mental capacity for another health problem – human or dog – was dangerously close to igniting…
Monday, March 7, 2022. The dizziness was far worse today than yesterday. I felt like I was walking crooked. I tried to sit upright and work from my home office, but the room kept tilting sideways. Miah looked into my…
2:00 PM. Monday, February 28, 2022. Miah and I sat in front of my laptop, waiting for Financial-Advisor C to start the conference call. A few seconds past the hour, she promptly started the meeting. I fumbled with my video…
Tuesday, February 15, 2022. I checked my email. Resilient-Researcher-Rochester J had sent a response, copying me and Peaceful-Comforting-Scientist A. I immediately sent a private email to Peaceful-Comforting-Scientist A, asking for her phone number. An hour later, she wrote back with…
Wednesday, February 9, 2022. For the next two weeks, my days were filled with a flurry of activities – attending appointments, connecting with friends, and beginning to figure stuff out. Due to the large amount of content, I decided to…
7:00 AM. Tuesday, February 1, 2022. Miah and I were both tired because we hadn't slept well the night before. "Call me if you hear anything about your results." He sternly told me.
Friday, January 28, 2022. The week prior, we had taken our younger dog, Magic, to the vet for his annual checkup and senior blood panel. Magic wasn't due for his checkup until April, but he'd had a couple accidents and…
Wednesday, January 19, 2022. I knew I would need extra imaging, but I was still annoyed nevertheless. A little part of me was hoping that maybe I would be wrong and I wouldn't need that second appointment. So on my…